Prolonged losing streak

[Runit]

Right now I'm in the lowest point of my career. Everything was going well. I broke out of a break even spell and was at an all time bankroll high. Things finally felt as if they were looking up for me. My bankroll was swollen to about $124,000 after my most recent trip. I decided to head off to Vegas, hopes high, in good spirits. The first day I picked up $6,000. My bankroll has swollen all the way up to $130,000. I slept for the night, woke up in the morning and then it happened. -$3,000 first session at 2x500. No big deal. Annoying but nothing bad. Next session: -$9,000 in one shoe at 1x500. Now I'm feeling the sting. I reversed my $6,000 win and turned it in to a $6,000 loss quickly. From that point on it was all blood from there with a minor "winning streak" that was taken back from me in short order. When the dust had settled and I returned home my bankroll had been run down all the way to $88,000, and now $86,000 after my most recent loss. I couldn't have imagined a worse outcome when I left to Vegas in good spirits. I took a look back at my graph and my break even period is around 750 hours. 8 months of full time play to show no win at blackjack.
The chronic depression, feelings of loneliness, despair, anger, etc. cannot escape me. I go to sleep and m rest is not satisfying. The moment I wake up the first thought that crosses my mind is "I can't believe I lost that much money. I can't believe I'm break even for 750 hours. I must be -1SD lifetime..." Every moment of every day I cannot escape the negative thoughts. As a result I am unable to enjoy anything in life. It's like I'm trapped in my own personal hell. I feel trapped and I don't know what to do.

 

[LC Larry]

You have to keep plugging away. These swings are almost inevitable.

 

[DSchles]

Right now I'm in the lowest point of my career. Everything was going well. I broke out of a break even spell and was at an all time bankroll high. Things finally felt as if they were looking up for me. My bankroll was swollen to about $124,000 after my most recent trip. I decided to head off to Vegas, hopes high, in good spirits. The first day I picked up $6,000. My bankroll has swollen all the way up to $130,000. I slept for the night, woke up in the morning and then it happened. -$3,000 first session at 2x500. No big deal. Annoying but nothing bad. Next session: -$9,000 in one shoe at 1x500. Now I'm feeling the sting. I reversed my $6,000 win and turned it in to a $6,000 loss quickly. From that point on it was all blood from there with a minor "winning streak" that was taken back from me in short order. When the dust had settled and I returned home my bankroll had been run down all the way to $88,000, and now $86,000 after my most recent loss. I couldn't have imagined a worse outcome when I left to Vegas in good spirits. I took a look back at my graph and my break even period is around 750 hours. 8 months of full time play to show no win at blackjack.
The chronic depression, feelings of loneliness, despair, anger, etc. cannot escape me. I go to sleep and m rest is not satisfying. The moment I wake up the first thought that crosses my mind is "I can't believe I lost that much money. I can't believe I'm break even for 750 hours. I must be -1SD lifetime..." Every moment of every day I cannot escape the negative thoughts. As a result I am unable to enjoy anything in life. It's like I'm trapped in my own personal hell. I feel trapped and I don't know what to do.

You lost 31% of your recent bank. I know it doesn't cheer you up, but that is virtually nothing at all and is altogether common.

Do you have no friends or family? Take a break and look for distractions other than blackjack. The game will still be there when you're ready to play again. And winning back 31% of your bank will always be more common than losing it, so your day will come. (I know you need to win back 44% to get back to $124,000.)

750 hours is a long time to go breaking even. It's a bad run. Not easy to quantify it without knowing the quality of the games you've been playing and what the overall SCORE (or N0) may be. But it's certainly an unlucky streak. Things will get better. They always do. Chin up.

Don

 

[Runit]

Thank you for the words of encouragement. Here are some sims I have run of a few of the many games I've played:

 

[BJgenius007]

Right now I'm in the lowest point of my career. Everything was going well. I broke out of a break even spell and was at an all time bankroll high. Things finally felt as if they were looking up for me. My bankroll was swollen to about $124,000 after my most recent trip. I decided to head off to Vegas, hopes high, in good spirits. The first day I picked up $6,000. My bankroll has swollen all the way up to $130,000. I slept for the night, woke up in the morning and then it happened. -$3,000 first session at 2x500. No big deal. Annoying but nothing bad. Next session: -$9,000 in one shoe at 1x500. Now I'm feeling the sting. I reversed my $6,000 win and turned it in to a $6,000 loss quickly. From that point on it was all blood from there with a minor "winning streak" that was taken back from me in short order. When the dust had settled and I returned home my bankroll had been run down all the way to $88,000, and now $86,000 after my most recent loss. I couldn't have imagined a worse outcome when I left to Vegas in good spirits. I took a look back at my graph and my break even period is around 750 hours. 8 months of full time play to show no win at blackjack.
The chronic depression, feelings of loneliness, despair, anger, etc. cannot escape me. I go to sleep and m rest is not satisfying. The moment I wake up the first thought that crosses my mind is "I can't believe I lost that much money. I can't believe I'm break even for 750 hours. I must be -1SD lifetime..." Every moment of every day I cannot escape the negative thoughts. As a result I am unable to enjoy anything in life. It's like I'm trapped in my own personal hell. I feel trapped and I don't know what to do.

You should play at the casinos you are winning. When you start playing in the new casinos, start with low stake tables to see if you can win there. Basically I only play hand shuffled $25 tables. When I go playing ASM tables, I only play at $10 table, knowing I might have clumping problems and may lose. And my winnings at hand shuffled tables could cover my loss at ASM tables.

 

[johndoe]

Are you able to reliably sit out negative counts like this in 2-deck games, especially in Vegas? The 1-3 spread is nice though.

 

[Runit]

 

[AC3SrW1LD]

Are you able to reliably sit out negative counts like this in 2-deck games, especially in Vegas? The 1-3 spread is nice though.

Hey John,

I'm curious. Are you saying the 1-3 spread is nice for avoiding heat and providing cover? That was my initial thought.

 

[Runit]

 

[Runit]

Hey John,

I'm curious. Are you saying the 1-3 spread is nice for avoiding heat and providing cover? That was my initial thought.

Yes, that's the purpose of the 1-3 spread. To avoid heat and provide cover. Unfortunately, not even that is enough for some places in LV. I was playing Boulder Station, 1x100- 1x300 ONE TIME triggered a call to surveillance.

 

[DSchles]

You should play at the casinos you are winning. When you start playing in the new casinos, start with low stake tables to see if you can win there. Basically I only play hand shuffled $25 tables. When I go playing ASM tables, I only play at $10 table, knowing I might have clumping problems and may lose. And my winnings at hand shuffled tables could cover my loss at ASM tables.

Is it possible that you'll ever stop posting this nonsense?

Don

 

[Southbound]

I find it helpful to focus more on if I played well, than the actual outcome. I‘ll spend time after a loss reviewing strategy and deviations to make sure I didn’t screw up. I’m relatively new to CC so I understand this probably doesn’t apply to you. But, if there is anything to learn from it, do that, and move on. Literally forget about. Try to find a sense of humor somehow too. Maybe you were just ahead of where you were supposed to be with your bankroll......if look at it that way, if was just a recalibration. You didn’t lose anything.

 

[21forme]

Is it possible that you'll ever stop posting this nonsense?

Is the Pope Catholic?
Does a bear (no, not you LVBear) shit in the woods?

 

[DSchles]

Is the Pope Catholic?
Does a bear (no, not you LVBear) shit in the woods?

No, but you've used these expressions incorrectly! They both imply "obviously, YES." But I think we both agree that it ISN'T possible that he's going to stop!

Don

 

[21forme]

Don - the way I used it was meaning based on his longstanding history of conspiracy theories and stupidity, it's obvious that it will never stop. But I see your point.

 

[Counting_Is_Fun]

Right now I'm in the lowest point of my career. Everything was going well. I broke out of a break even spell and was at an all time bankroll high. Things finally felt as if they were looking up for me. My bankroll was swollen to about $124,000 after my most recent trip. I decided to head off to Vegas, hopes high, in good spirits. The first day I picked up $6,000. My bankroll has swollen all the way up to $130,000. I slept for the night, woke up in the morning and then it happened. -$3,000 first session at 2x500. No big deal. Annoying but nothing bad. Next session: -$9,000 in one shoe at 1x500. Now I'm feeling the sting. I reversed my $6,000 win and turned it in to a $6,000 loss quickly. From that point on it was all blood from there with a minor "winning streak" that was taken back from me in short order. When the dust had settled and I returned home my bankroll had been run down all the way to $88,000, and now $86,000 after my most recent loss. I couldn't have imagined a worse outcome when I left to Vegas in good spirits. I took a look back at my graph and my break even period is around 750 hours. 8 months of full time play to show no win at blackjack.
The chronic depression, feelings of loneliness, despair, anger, etc. cannot escape me. I go to sleep and m rest is not satisfying. The moment I wake up the first thought that crosses my mind is "I can't believe I lost that much money. I can't believe I'm break even for 750 hours. I must be -1SD lifetime..." Every moment of every day I cannot escape the negative thoughts. As a result I am unable to enjoy anything in life. It's like I'm trapped in my own personal hell. I feel trapped and I don't know what to do.

This is Dalmation from Blackjack The Forum posting his usual, pretend BJ story.
He posts this same story every few months using different names, and on this forum too.
He dreams about playing BJ, and always posts this same story using different versions.
His old posts always had like a 1K bankroll. Now he has revised his story pretending to be a high roller.
For some reason he pretends to play BJ and posts this same story over and over looking for attention I guess.
He posted a similar story recently at the other forum...except he pretended to take a trip down south.
Don't waste your replies on this guy...he doesn't even play BJ.

 

[21forme]

This is Dalmation from Blackjack The Forum posting his usual, pretend BJ story.
He posts this same story every few months using different names, and on this forum too.

While the stories are similar, I'm not so sure it's him. Dalmation usually puts the dollar sign AFTER the number, instead of in front of it. This poster correctly puts it in front of the number.

 

[AC3SrW1LD]

This is Dalmation from Blackjack The Forum posting his usual, pretend BJ story.
He posts this same story every few months using different names, and on this forum too.
He dreams about playing BJ, and always posts this same story using different versions.
His old posts always had like a 1K bankroll. Now he has revised his story pretending to be a high roller.
For some reason he pretends to play BJ and posts this same story over and over looking for attention I guess.
He posted a similar story recently at the other forum...except he pretended to take a trip down south.
Don't waste your replies on this guy...he doesn't even play BJ.

No way. I don't think anyone is that much of a loser to post a fake story and provide so much detail.

 

[Counting_Is_Fun]

While the stories are similar, I'm not so sure it's him. Dalmation usually puts the dollar sign AFTER the number, instead of in front of it. This poster correctly puts it in front of the number.

Maybe not, but go read all his posts here and at the other forum. It's him lol.

 

[Counting_Is_Fun]

No way. I don't think anyone is that much of a loser to post a fake story and provide so much detail.

How long have you read both forums? Trust me, it's him.
He has been posting the same story every few months for a few years now, mostly on the other forum.