try and be an idiot

there you go. i keep overlooking the idea of the likelyhood of being at some range of amount of money aspect of standard deviation and always just focus on the amount of money aspect of it. thanks for clarifying that.
part of how i was feeling is that feeling of dis-belief that one gets when you keep seeing the dealer win time after time virtualy regardless of how good a hand you might have. even when you know intellectually that that is just what is supposed to happen. and then when i was getting slam-dunked on so many of my big bets at dream TC's there was all these paranoid like thoughts going through my mind, like maybe counting doesn't work, maybe this whole AP thing is just a conspiracy of the casino's, or counting works but not for me cause of all the bad things i've ever done in my life. i even started to believe i may have been right when i wrote the little spoof about Norm's software code for CVBJ lol if you ever read that.
http://www.blackjackinfo.com/bb/showpost.php?p=67752&postcount=1
just what ever dismal idea popped into my head seemed to be reinforced by the way things were going down. then it's like you get this temptation feeling to steam or depart from the game plan in some way. lol all that and playing the game for not really money!
but the WISEFROG spreadsheet helped me to at least see that ok this is where i'm at on the reality scale of what can happen. and yeah maybe i'm getting pretty far out on the fringe and also knowing the ROR for this exploit is so high and that the hands to play were pretyy limited i could at least rationally think about those real apsects as opposed to the 'cursed' feelings that had no basis as far as rational thought.
conversly when i had the pretty good turn around and the bankroll started rebuilding i had opposite thougts and feelings lol. like hey now i could see how the good counts are working out as they 'should' for me. i'm thinking this standard deviation thing is flipping for me.
then i start fearing and thinking but this can all turn on a dime and i fall right back down the tubes again. lol. but again looking at WISEFROG i could see i'm again not really out of the realm that the math says can happen to me sort of thing. and i guess i understand that playing the contest as i am that the simm was set for optimal bankroll growth and i think that means pretty much like full kelly and i know that's supposed to be a real thrill rollercoaster ride.
lol, well i was joking about the knuckles but i did slam the desk a few time. think i better hide the golf clubs. lol

I never dreamed anyone else ever had those paranoid thoughts!

......................................................................................AS:dog:lan

wait a minute aslan! if you believe it and i believe it. it must be true!

OTOH, maybe we're both just f----- up! :laugh: :laugh: :cry: :cry: :toast:

i feel better already knowing how f(%*^ up i am. probably never have another paranoid thought again. i'm cured. maybe a little f#*% up but cured!
might even be able to play the violin again someday. :violin:

Hey Sage, I think Aslan earned the right for a nickname. Whadaya think?

lol absolutely. and i think i'll bet you got one all picked out for him. lol
let the ceremony commense. pomp & circumstances.

so, ok aslan erhh if thats still your monicker lol i think jack-theghostrider-jackson is going to bestow a nickname upon you. lol
but anyway about those paranoid thoughts or whatever maybe just thoughts now that we know how f&$%ed up we are lol. but since this is the voodoo board and the topic was try and be an idiot. let me ask you. i think i remmeber you stating something like the idea that about maybe you think sometimes you just have some sort of premonition and that of course if you'd of followed it then cha-ching things would have been golden. my words but i think that's the gist. ok, well same here. maybe those are called hunchs?
but well anyway i've got another sort of like that mental musing or whatever you want to call it. the idea being i'm painfully aware or blissfully aware what ever the case may be of my emotions and perhaps more importantly my mental expectations on i guess a hand by hand basis when playing. but here is the kicker. you know in the Bible somewhere how it says God doesn't like a haughty look, doesn't like pride? i'm sure you do. but ok when i'm playing and i got these emotions and mental expectations and i get to sensing the disposition in my demeanor about maybe some hand that i think i'm gonna win to where i get this haughty disposition about it. to where i don't feel good about it and maybe i lose that hand lol (not really sure). maybe it's better for our luck to either play objectively or with a sense of mystery but hopeful expectation than to even play say if you have miserable expectations or a miserable sense of where things are going or some sort of grandoise ideation.
how's that for voodoo?

For you consideration

http://tierneylab.blogs.nytimes.com/2008/04/07/and-the-worst-bad-name-is/index.html?ex=136530720

http://www.ehow.com/how_1665_name-dog.html

http://www.piratequiz.com/

(Dead link: http://www.playerappreciate.com/pimphandle.asp)

http://crime.about.com/library/blwmc.htm

http://www.kabalarians.com/index.cfm

http://www.rinkworks.com/namegen/

(Dead link: http://pages.prodigy.net/mlemus/mobnamegenerator.htm)

lol don't worry about it aslan i'm sure the ghostrider will pick you out a doozy!

and so it goes.....

sagethepoisonousfrog*vs*jacktheghostriderjackson

Rules:6D,S17,NSA,75%pen,DAS,Lsr .36,HA

Conditions:3plyrs,1-10spread,Play-all,5,000K,BR

Submit results on these dates:

Schedule: (Start Date/4/17)

******Sage/Jack******

1.4/23:-$905/-130$

2.4/29:-$638/+35$

3.5/05:/-$1,488/+890$

4.5/11:/-$1,468/+705$

5.5/17:/-$1,752/+220$

6.5/23:/-$3,292/+195$

7.5/29:/-$3,635/+275$

8.6/04:/-$955/+580$

9.6/10:/-$2,940/+570$

10.6/16:/na/+2,275$


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played one shoe too many before i posted this lol. probably will finish up tonight if i gotta enough to make it 39 more shoes.

How about the ghostrider part2?

Hold on Aslan, Im trying to figure out how to use the Fantasy name Generator.:laugh:

If I only had a Nickel, for every time I threw my cards and said this doesnt work, Id have 15 cents.

egad i'd have an army arrayed against me.
the two pale riders of the apocolypse.....

Stay Tuned for Round 2

Kasi&Jack vs Sage&Aslan:laugh:

call for thoughts on guidelines

speaking on that. it is getting close to maybe if we are gonna do it again to where we need to set some guidelines of some sort.
just a thought on that to where perhaps maybe we could set up some amount of money as the goal and each individual player or team or how ever it ended up using what ever way they go about it does their thing?
i dunno somethin to think about. :fish:

fourteen shoes to go

gotta get some z's so haven't finished up yet lol.
down -$2380 with fourteen shoes to go... circa 400 hands or so...
hopin for the flip side of some negative standard deviation. lol just to break even i guess.

I'm not against you, Oh toadacious one! View attachment 295 Spring forth, oh warted warrior, for I will avenge thee not!