ZenKinG
Well-Known Member
I just hope anyone reading this realizes I would never do anything badly to anyone or any casino. My rants after losses have been like this for as long as i can remember dating back to my competitive video game days. Sure it's absolutely no excuse to say the stuff I have said online, but what people dont understand is that the main reason I say this crazy stuff is because it's so hard to put my anger into words online immediately after a loss where people can really see how frustrated I am after a loss or the feeling of me being cheated, so because of that I have to say these crazy things that I obviously would never do to anyone just so people actually realize how frustrated I actually am and after 5 or 10 minutes i regret what i said because its just a short term anger burst, and only because I think ive been cheated whcih adds to the frustration
I have a lot of regret about the stuff i said and i will not post on any forums probably ever again because it's an unhealthy outlet for me and makes me look like an absolute nutcase which I'm not. All my rants are immediately after losses and gives a really bad impression about who i am. I'm probably as competitive as it gets when it comes to either making money as an AP, sports, succeeding at video games, etc. and I dont really know how to lose, which is probably my biggest flaw and tend to create patterns or relations in my head towards other things to blame for my losses. Yes I have a flaw which is hard to believe, but I guess it's time to admit that. Sure I still dont trust these games in this city at least at several places not just in vegas, but around the country, but I'm starting to realize I either need to quit permanently or just suck up the losses and keep playing because nothing will ever change no matter how often I cry on these forums or rant or whatever else I say on here.
Just want to clear things up because there's a lot of chatter on the other forum about me and what I've said on there where I cannot defend myself since I'm now banned on there. From the people who actually know me they all can vouch for me that I'm a good person when I'm not in the moment after a loss at anything. When I'm not losing I'm a completely different person, I just hate losing and need to work on that. The rants are always immediately after a loss and last 5 minutes and then. I'm back to normal. Maybe I need anger management therapy or whatever idk.
I just want to clear up anything I have said up to this point.
I have a lot of regret about the stuff i said and i will not post on any forums probably ever again because it's an unhealthy outlet for me and makes me look like an absolute nutcase which I'm not. All my rants are immediately after losses and gives a really bad impression about who i am. I'm probably as competitive as it gets when it comes to either making money as an AP, sports, succeeding at video games, etc. and I dont really know how to lose, which is probably my biggest flaw and tend to create patterns or relations in my head towards other things to blame for my losses. Yes I have a flaw which is hard to believe, but I guess it's time to admit that. Sure I still dont trust these games in this city at least at several places not just in vegas, but around the country, but I'm starting to realize I either need to quit permanently or just suck up the losses and keep playing because nothing will ever change no matter how often I cry on these forums or rant or whatever else I say on here.
Just want to clear things up because there's a lot of chatter on the other forum about me and what I've said on there where I cannot defend myself since I'm now banned on there. From the people who actually know me they all can vouch for me that I'm a good person when I'm not in the moment after a loss at anything. When I'm not losing I'm a completely different person, I just hate losing and need to work on that. The rants are always immediately after a loss and last 5 minutes and then. I'm back to normal. Maybe I need anger management therapy or whatever idk.
I just want to clear up anything I have said up to this point.
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