My comment that you should believe in the math and stop those sleepless nights was meant to be humorous, Don.
But seriously, you are the one that made that odd comment about waking up happier being ahead for the trip. That kind of short term results just doesn't matter. And again, because we seem to have some players, attempting to play for a living freaking out about short term variance, I sort of hate to see any reference to the contrary.
My younger brother and I have had interesting ends to our year. I spent the entire year very close to EV, ranging from slightly above to slightly below. I took about 3 months off from blackjack card counting, this fall, working on another advantage play. But in the final 2-3 weeks, I wanted to cram in some additional play. Results were negative and I am currently running just about 80% of EV for the year and am not planning on playing anymore.
Now my brother, has been running well below EV the entire year, ranging from as low as 30% during the first half of the year, to about 50% as late as mid November. He has gone on a tear over the past 5 weeks and as of yesterday was remarkably close to the same 80% as I am. Not sure of whether he intends to play further or not.
And in the end (of the year) which we are now very close to,
that is all that matters. It doesn't matter that I was close to EV most of the year and he was far, far below. What matters is where you finish. Luckily, even fairly early in his young career, he handled this well, or he wouldn't have gotten any sleep this year.