Well KJ, I do find it interesting that you saw fit to mention that you were out
of control emotionally, and "Giddy as a child at Christmas",,,,I think you made a good choice to not play any more that day.
I will tell you a little story, a true one. Two of the deadliest men of the old West, gunslingers and fighters, were
Wyatt Earp and
Bill Hitchcock, neither were even close to having the quickest draw, but both had
steel control of their emotions, and were
dead on accurate,
never rattled, and through life kept these virtue's right up to the end. Both, without fail,
never spoke or
bragged of their
exploits, which were truly legendary. Their game faces and the aura they projected were never forgotten by those who knew them, or were in their presence.
I think you should remember these two
superlative men when you begin to
lose your emotions, pattern yourself after them, because to many here they look up to you as a modern day
Earp, or
Hitchcock, they live precariously through your exploits, and to have you lose your cool emotionally, well, that is not how you are envisoned by many,,,,,stay frosty.
CP